About self control

Find hard to control myself to concentrate on my study. i'm a morning person, so i tend to be more concentrate in the mornings. But the problem is , in the evenings, i'm useless! like today, i was preparing my presentation for Friday, then a friend came over. We chatted for a while, like over a hour. afterwards i just cant go back to study. doing nothing online... end up blogging here...

i need more time to study, but simply i am distracted by so many things that not worth my attention. you know what i mean? How can i get in to the mood quickly and thoroughly? i've prayed for this for so many times, but it seems that it's so hard to change. i mean, God made me this way, this is like my personality which is deep in my blood, how can i possibly change? i know i should have the perspective of doing everything for Him, but still, hard.
i feel like i'm so messed up because i am a person who tend to pursue perfection. kind of obsess to it...but the thing is, i cant be good in doing things. so i always feel like i'm a loser. it's not good at all.

i know God is capable of changing my heart, i've experienced it. so i guess the very right thing to do is just give all my concerns to Him, ask Him to take care of me, to change my heart, to take my burden. i would appreciate if you could just give me a little short prayer when you are reading this, thx!