Life as it continues

I got really annoyed by one of my friends today. I am the one that looks out for people, and listens to them when they run back to me hurt and crying. I am the one people tell, "You are so nice," or "what would I do without you?" or "you put a smile on my face." Many times it is a nice blessing, it feels good to help someone forget their seemingly insurmountable worries. But other times, I want to stop caring about people so much because they don't seem to care about themselves, and most of all, they don't seem to care about me.

I don't think I will change the core of how I am. But sometimes, i just would try to not care so much. Maybe people learn faster from falling, and the harder they fall, the stronger the lesson sticks in their heads. I have been "responsible for" her for two years: how do I just watch her and say nothing? How do I even act angry when she comes back to say she is sorry? The core of me says I can't. I can't I can't I can't. And it is annoying because I wish I were a bit more capable of not caring.